Haven't been updating this blog as frequent as I used to,
it's not that I do not wanna record my life or update my friends anymore,
it's not because things in my life do not worth me to spend a few minutes and type them down,
it's just that...I got confused by what are the PROPER things to put down here. I am going to be 22 soon, but I am so not used to be an "adult",
there are too many restrictions in an adult's life, and I hate to fail people's expectation,
so all the time I have been trying to figure out what is appropriate to do and what is not.
But somewhere in my heart I still wanna be the old me,
I still wanna be as childish and naive as I've been.
I feel bad at the end of the day after acting childishly thou,
cuz I care too much about how people think of me, and that feeling makes me dislike myself.
I believed I have got thru my identity crisis since I determined to give up to be a vet and switched to do costumes,
but the same feeling of confusion is coming back now.
It's not about career, it's not about what I should do or what am I good at,
it's about who I am and how should I carry myself... Being jobless is hollowing me,
being uncertain about what will I be doing next month is driving me crazy,
but the good thing is, I know clearly that I surely cannot live well without my animals and costumes. Some pictures taken when I was having a break from xanga: 
And this is what I do to Ali's brows to make her look more period-accurate. What we want to do is conceal her long and thick natural eyebrows because ladies had pencil-thin brows back in those days, like this: 
1. Apply some wax on her eye brows
2. Use a brush to apply light color foundation on her waxed brows.
3. Put some powder on the foundation to fix it and apply another layer of darker tone foundation.
4. Draw the new brows on and it's done!
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